Hi everyone, it’s been a while. Thank you so much for being here. It’s about damn time (*in a minute, imma need a sentimental man or woman to pump me up*) we catch up. The things I’ve done, the things I’ve seen, the things I’ve experienced. I feel ready to share everything with you.

These days, I’ve been feeling a bit all over the place, not gonna lie.

Um, first of all, about a year ago, I packed my bags and left the country. Last fall, I was spending my days in Seoul, South Korea. Yes, you’ve heard it correctly: Seoul, South Korea. No biggie, just that I flew – 14 hours! – across the world for my semester abroad. And I’ve got to say, it was the best. You can read more about it here. Make sure to check it out! I had a hard time being back home in January. I felt very conflicted with myself. Ever since I got back, I’ve been reminiscing a lot. Some days I could just cry my eyes out, thinking about how I’ll never get to experience those days again.

Of course, I could go back, but it won’t ever be the same. Every moment in life is so unique. I’m so grateful for the opportunities, friends, accomplishments, and memories.

When I got back, I finished my degree. I graduated and officially have a Business Management diploma in my hands! I majored in Events. I’m also following an additional training in Interior Styling for a year (2 days a week). So on some days, I really feel like I have my life together.

On other days, I really feel like I don’t have anything together at all. I’m actively job-hunting during the remaining days of the week. Let me tell you, it’s no picnic or walk-in-the-park. I’m pretty sure I experienced (multiple?) existential crises. Let’s be honest here, I’m a young grad so I’m feeling a bit insecure about my skills and abilities. I feel like I miss valuable knowledge to put an entire event up on my own and act like a professional. I would still love some guidance and team members who give some of their input and feedback because that’s the only way for me to learn and grow. If I want to work within and learn from a team, I believe event agencies are the best way for me to go, but they often don’t have an empty slot open. It’s really hard to find a suitable job offer. Maybe I’m setting the bar too high, but ya girl got some big dreams that she wants to move forward with. Most employers like the fact that I’m still educating myself, but at the same time think I’m not a good match because of it, since I won’t be able to work full-time. So yeah, I don’t know what I am even doing at this point. What have I been doing for the past few years?

As a kid, I always dreamt that I would grow up to be the person who could do it all. Need a graphic designer? I got you. Need a photographer? I got you. Maybe a stylist, producer, event manager, handy man, teacher, whatever? I wanna be able to do it. I want to be busy, and I need variation. I believe that side is still inside of me. I’m very eager to learn new things and have many skills and talents. It will keep me on my toes and keep me entertained for sure. So yeah, whatever gets on my path, I’ll always try to further educate myself on the side. I feel this certain need to be ‘productive’ one way or another. It’s how I relax. It’s how I entertain myself (don’t get me wrong, I still love some chillax time with a facial mask, a drink, and a good series). I’m not sure how to explain it, but I know I want to keep working on myself to create a better version.

Also feel the need to vent to someone? Or do you just want a chat? You can always hit me up at any time. Don’t feel like a burden because I wanna get to know you too. 🙂

As always, lots of love from your friend,

Lara